wat wrong wif me today??

wat wrong wif me??i moody now....many thg across my mind...suddenly i feel like hopeless,helpless....d pressure killing me day by day...u noe wat feel like??like a heavy stone pressing my chest...cant breath...i duno wat should i do??i miss my mum...last nite...after i knew tat she working overtime...my heart melt...since my dad pass away...she take all d burden squarely on her shoulder...because of her...i can stand until now...n i duno i can stand any longer...i scare i make u dissapionted,mum...my heart is crying while seeing ur face...d wrinkle on ur face show how much u suffer 4 tis family...sometimes...i keep on asking y my dad so selfish...he left us alone...alone...u noe wat its feeling like when u r a orphange...u feel lonely,helpless...no one stand up 4 u when other bully u...no one teach u when u duno how to do ur homework...no one share ur happiness when u succeed...sometime...i cry quietly...y is me tat nid to feel tis pain...although its ady 8 years...u pain still there...keep on bleeding...i jz scare tat i ady dun hv any energy to stand up again after tis when i fall...