rainy day

the sky is crying now,together wif my broken heart...i cant help from feeling useless...feel like a boron...i try to get bec...d spirit tat had gone since d first day i enter tis university...University Teknology Petronas...a gud name to heard...a skul tat ppl ask 4 n even cry 4...but behind tis glorious name...i am suffering...i hardly can breath everyday...d stress tat i feel is killing me...i duno wat should i do to make me feel better...everyday is a hastic day 4 me...rush here n there...like mad gal...sometimes i really feel like wan to gv up...but i noe i cant...all hope on my shoulder...keep on pressing me to d limit...i jz hope tat d time can turn bec...to d time when i were in secondary skul...surrounding by frends...no tension...my day at tat day was full of laughter...i tat day seem like so long away from now...i jz wan bec tat laughter...naive hapiness...

wat wrong wif me today??

wat wrong wif me??i moody now....many thg across my mind...suddenly i feel like hopeless,helpless....d pressure killing me day by day...u noe wat feel like??like a heavy stone pressing my chest...cant breath...i duno wat should i do??i miss my mum...last nite...after i knew tat she working overtime...my heart melt...since my dad pass away...she take all d burden squarely on her shoulder...because of her...i can stand until now...n i duno i can stand any longer...i scare i make u dissapionted,mum...my heart is crying while seeing ur face...d wrinkle on ur face show how much u suffer 4 tis family...sometimes...i keep on asking y my dad so selfish...he left us alone...alone...u noe wat its feeling like when u r a orphange...u feel lonely,helpless...no one stand up 4 u when other bully u...no one teach u when u duno how to do ur homework...no one share ur happiness when u succeed...sometime...i cry quietly...y is me tat nid to feel tis pain...although its ady 8 years...u pain still there...keep on bleeding...i jz scare tat i ady dun hv any energy to stand up again after tis when i fall...